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I am a 22 year old searching for my niche in the world. I am a recent graduate of Moody Bible Institute with a Bachelors of Science in Biblical Studies. I work at Northwoods Community Church in Peoria, Illinois with college students and jr. high students.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Random Thoughts for Monday

So I know my posts have been sparce as of late...it others me as much as it bothers you, I'm sure...

Here is my random thought for today...

I am taking a Developmental Disabilities class this summer...and I have to write a paper about what would be the thing I would miss most if I woke up one day and I was blind...

And I couldn't help but think back to the episode of Seinfeld where Jerry is getting a massage, and he asks the masseuse what she thinks would be the worst thing about being blind...he then gives his idea..."I think the worst thing would be not being able to tell if there were bugs in my food."


I'm not so sure that my prof. would appreciate that, but I think it is hilarious...

Monday, June 19, 2006

"Random Thoughts Monday"

I am reading through Exodus, (actually Bethany and I are reading through Exodus as part of our attempt to make it through the Old Testament together) and I sometimes find it hard to draw things out of the OT to apply to my life.

I think this is a common mistake that people make when reading the OT. I realized again today that I don't have to "take something out to apply to my life" when reading Scripture. Often times it is simply od revealing Himself to me. It doesn't have to be a life-changing bit of information that is going to change the way I live my life. But what it might do instead is change the way I think about God.

That being said, I am continually amazed at how God constantly provides what is needed for the Israelites. A lot of times in Exodus the Israelites are upset, mad, confused, etc...at Moses and God. But God is faithful to them in giving them what they need to survive, (protection against the Egyptians, Amekilites, manna to eat, and water to drink, etc, etc, etc)

This has lead me to understand and see that God is good in my life too. Even when several aspects of life are hard, unclear, upsetting, or whatever else...God is still my Provider giving me everything I need to survive as I claw to understand.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Softball

I am proud to announce the end of my current slump. I was 3-4 tonight with 2 runs scored and a RBI. Tomorrow night will continue my new streak of good hitting. I am putting a guarantee on it. I will post the results of tomorrow night's game tomorrow night or on Saturday.

Most importantly, we are still undefeated on our Thursday night team. 4-0. Though tonight was a tester, we still pulled through...16-12!

Slow Pitch Softball

Well, I am coming off my worst week ever in softball (a comined 0-7 in two leagues, with one sac. fly) Tonight begins a two day journey for a hit. No pressure, although I'm sure I'll hear a little bit of Tom Foolery if I don't get a hit and we win. It's all game tonight. I am focused on hitting line drives instead of trying to hit the ball outta the park. home runs will come if I just swuare up on the ball a little better instead of dipping my shoulder and trying to crush that stupid big white ball.

I already had my pre-game ritual and we're still 1 1/2 hours away from game time....I would suggest not asking what that is...

Shelley has been rescued!!!!

So for those of you who didn't know...

I bought a box turtle a few days ago...

And for those of you who didn't know...

my dogs caused it to run free in the backyard...they messed with the "turtle pen".

So last night I was frantickly trying to find my beloved Shelley but to no avail.

I figured her for dead, probably get eaten by a coyote or a raccoon.

But today, this morning, I went outside seeking one more time around the backyard, looking in all the obvious places...behind and in bushes,underneath our shed, in piles of leaves or grass clippings or tree bark....NOTHING!!!

Then I wondered up the hill in our yard, assuming to find nothing, but I had to look there for my sake. Attachment came quicker than I thought it would with this little herbivorous pretty.

So I got to nearly the top of our yard and out of the corner of my eye I see a round object that resembles a dark rock. A look closer...and I see it is my Shelley.

At last all of my fears of Shelley being attacked and grossly murdered are now over. I am happy to tell you that Shelley is now safe in her home eating a lovely arrangement of carrots, lettuce, and apples.

For the record, I imagine Shelley is pissed right now. She had free roam of a big yard...leaves and twigs and bark to eat....bugs to capture....now she is back in captivity...

I will have to re-win her affection!!

Ben, thanks for praying that I would find her! And thanks to all those who wished me good luck in finding her!

(This is the most idiotic post of my blogger history...and probably future for that matter)

Monday, June 12, 2006

I got a Box Turtle


I got a box turtle today and it is a female. So for those of you who might want to help me name it, take a shot...I'll be accepting potential names for little missy for a few days...

Monday's are for Random stuff

I am going to start on Monday's giving a list of everything that is on my mind....starting today...

The first is my job. How do we continue to connect college students during the summer? For some reason it seems that the busier college kids are (during school) the more often they will take the time out to come to church, or to hang out outside of church. Seems weird, and I could be wrong.

The second is school. School sucks, don't ever do it. Just kidding, actually I am getting my butt kicked by school this summer because I am taking 9 hours so I can graduate in December. It will be done on July 25...counting the days...

The third is post college. What the heck am I going to do when I graduate?

The fourth is Bethany. This doesn't really need explaining...but she is pretty amazing!!! (Disclaimer: she is not 4th on my list of thoughts, just the way everything spewed out of my brain this morning.)

The fifth is God. Again, not the way things are ordered, just came out this way. I want more, but I don't want to do the work. Ever been there? I need to pony to the God-Bar and get drunk.



Lastly, I plan on getting a turtle sometime today or tomorrow. Anyone have any good name ideas?

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Strange Week


This week has been a strange one. I got in an accident a little over a week ago...(which wasn't my fault and couldn't be avoided). There has been a lot of work to do since Charlie was in Colorado. And now all three of my summer classes are in full swing. This is going to be a crazy summer. I initially wanted to work more than the part-time hours I work for the church (because I feel like a bum because all my friends work more than me and make more money) but I think it is going to be worth it so I can graduate after the fall semester.

I am currently in the worst slump of my slow pitch softball career (a career that spans 5 years). Over my last two games I am combined total of 0-7 with 1 RBI. I have gone 8 plate appearances without reaching first base safely. Now you need to know that I am not horrible at softball. Humility at stake here, I am pretty good at softball. That is why going 0-7 in two games makes me almost laugh. Ah well, at least it gives me something to be nervous about every time I step to the plate.

This woman is using the exact same bat that I use. However, I assure you that I haven't swung and missed yet...That may be soon to come however.

Monday, June 05, 2006

How often is it normal to have a crappy day?

So I haven't had the best of the past few days....driving around in a rental car that is a bit broken in itself...I thought that was the purpose of the rental car..to drive while your car is broken...meehh...

I am having a difficulty communicating with people recently. At least, it seems like I am struggling to say the things I mean to say...

How often is it okay to have a bad day? Or better yet, how often is it normal? I feel like I have had too many bad days lately. Sometimes it seems like I am unhappy for no reason. Does anyone else ever feel this way?

Life in general just feels a little "blah" right now. Things are going all right...everything is normal...I just want more of something...


maybe i want more of God
life has just slowed down recently and i have found myself thinking about life more often
i don't think it's bad to think about life, but can you think too much about the things that are going on immediately around you?
do i Love what i am doing right now? i don't know, maybe. i at least like it a lot.

How do you refresh yourself? How do you renew your soul?
Why can it be so easy to slip into a short term depressive state? (i'm not really depressed...just down the last couple of days...so don't worry about me!!)
So how do i get refreshed?

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Happy 100 Posts to Me....Sort of

Happy 100 Posts to Me!! Except for the fact that the purpose of this entry is to detail the crash I was involved in yesterday. In an attempt to avoid a crash, I struck another vehicle and now my car is out of commission. I suppose that is okay because I'mm 99% sure I will have no liability in this incident. Which is awesome because my car gets fixed for free, and I get a rental car for a while. And everyone knows rental cars are fun because you can drive them inot the ground...just as long as you don't dent it, or wreck it...

So here's to my 100th post on blogger. How exciting is that??

I know, I know, not really all that exciting.